Chapter 5 - THE BLUE NOTEBOOK

The next morning, Lily refused to go to school.
âMom knows where I am.â
âShe knows youâre with me.â
âNo. I mean she knows where I am at school.â
I sat beside her on Meganâs couch.
âShe canât just take you.â
Lily gave me a look that belonged on someone forty years older.
âSheâs my mom.â
That was the problem.
Legally, biologically, publiclyâClaire was their mother.
To the outside world, she was the woman who made cupcakes for school fundraisers.
She volunteered at field day.
She remembered teachersâ birthdays.
She posted pictures of homemade lunches online with tiny heart-shaped sandwiches.
People loved Claire.
I had loved Claire.
By noon, my lawyer had helped me file for an emergency protective order.
By two, Claireâs attorney had responded.
By four, I understood what Lily meant when she said Claire knew how to make people believe things.
Claire claimed I had become âunstable.â
She said I had kidnapped the children after a marital argument.
She said I had manipulated them.
She said the frying pan slipped from her hand.
Then she added one sentence that made my lawyer go silent.
âShe alleges you have an anger problem.â
I laughed.
Not because it was funny.
Because I finally understood the trap.
âSheâs been building this.â
My lawyer looked at me.
âWhat do you mean?â
âRule twenty-three.â
I played the recording from the night before.
He stopped taking notes.
When it ended, he said quietly, âKeep everything.â
That evening, Lily came into the kitchen.
âDad?â
âYeah?â
âI forgot something.â
âAt home?â
She nodded.
âWhat?â
âMy blue notebook.â
âSchool notebook?â
âNo.â
Her face told me it mattered.
âWhatâs in it?â
She glanced toward Noah, who was watching television.
âStuff Mom did.â
I stared at her.
âYou wrote it down?â
âNot everything.â
âWhy?â
âBecause sometimes she told me I remembered things wrong.â
That sentence hit me harder than the pan.
âSo you wrote them down so youâd know you werenât imagining them?â
Lily nodded.
âWhere is it?â
âMy room.â
âIâll get it.â
âNo.â
âWhy?â
âShe knows about it.â
My heart stopped.
âHow?â
âShe found me writing once.â
âWhat happened?â
âShe asked what I was doing.â
âWhat did you say?â
âI told her it was a story.â
âDid she believe you?â
Lily shook her head.
âShe read one page.â
âWhat was on the page?â
Lily swallowed.
âThe day she locked Noah outside.â
Megan looked up sharply.
âWhat?â
âIt wasnât long,â Lily said quickly. âIt was just cold.â
I had to grip the counter.
âWhere did you hide the notebook?â
Lily whispered, âInside the wall.â
I stared at her.
âWhat wall?â
âIn my closet. Thereâs a loose vent. I put it behind there.â
My phone rang.
Claire.
I didnât answer.
Then a text came.
I HAVE LILYâS NOTEBOOK.
May you like
Another followed.
COME HOME ALONE IF YOU WANT IT BACK.